Koi to mera blog padho!!

“Koi to mera blog padho!!” Is it a question that all bloggers face in their beginning?

I was a happy go lucky blogger who never paid any serious interest to traffic on my blog. Truly speaking, my blog was more like my personal diary where I vented my thoughts and forgot about.

I in fact have a very old blog, blogger.com tell me, that I started blogging in 2007. Most of the kids my age didn’t know what blogging was all about. Actually even I didn’t. For me blogging was the new cool thing I discovered while exploring tabs on google.com and all I knew about it was the bookish meaning.

Eventually somewhere around 2010, the blogging culture started appearing in my lifestyle circumference. Once or twice, I met some cool people who blogged regularly and I could join the conversation because I did have a blog too.

Still not paying attention to the activity that was happening in the blog world, I was happily blogging my feelings, darkest stories, experiences or other things that fed my writing hunger. I never seriously paid attention to content, regularity, appearance, social link or how it will impact my blog’s life. I would happily share some of it on facebook notes (that too with a copy and paste and not export) and got some interesting, appreciating and at times zero feedbacks.

Somewhere around 2011 I slowly started losing confidence in my writing abilities. I reached a point when I believed that I had the most pathetic vocab and comprehension in the world. One fine day, I deleted all the posts from my blog.

One full year of no writing at all (office mails don’t count), it was Christmas last year when I stumbled upon one old FB note (remember I said I copied my blog on note). The note was surprisingly well appreciated.

It took me a few more months to come back to writing. So here I was, once again writing a few random blogs, without clear direction or real enthusiasm. I needed some encouragement and didn’t know where to find it.

And then Indiblogger happened. I saw someone’s blog mentioning “Get published” and searched for it, eventually led to Indiblogger. I signed up for it and waited for response and after I was approved I waited for someone to show up on my page.

But that didn’t happen. So on one boring office day (like today) I explored a bit of this site. It generated some traffic. Then yesterday, I posted some blogs, and got my first 50 view pages in one day. Also, I got my first ranking (50 isn’t great I know) which made me slightly happy.

But now, here is the real big problem. The joy of seeing 50 people read it in a day, and getting some good comments is so addictive that I want each one to read it. To like, dislike or comment. To promote and to discuss.

I feel like spamming the web with my blog and screaming for attention (don’t get scared, I wouldn’t do that and get thrown out of every single forum). However, I have temporarily stopped working as seriously as I used to, and am paying more attention to this blog than I ever gave (if my blog was a person, it would have felt so much love). And I still have the same exasperation as I mentioned – “Please read my blog :p”