Few months back, in a disheartning moment of self pity and criticism, I deleted all I had ever written. And Alas! except one single post, that some-how remained on one of the other pages all had no back up.
So here i start all over again. And let me tell you that to start is not easy, but to re-start is even tougher. While I write, the shadows of fear and criticsm creep in. I re-read and edit sentences that I write and therefore, there is alot of usage of "backspace".
However, now that the begining is made, a paragraph is written, I'll end with a few lines I wrote sometime ago which keep me inspired to pursue my dream..
I am wrong and I am right,
I crawl and I fly,
I love and I hate,
I live my life learning...
I am what I am...a human in making.
Sugandha - I can totally relate to the anguish you would have felt on the deleting of your blog. About 3 years back, I inadvertently deleted a single unnatural looking file on my laptop and lo - next day, when I re-started it, it would not boot. 4 years of data was lost. I went into shock. Then I pondered, whatever files/data I lost was of 2 kinds. Either something that was created by me or something that I collected from others. Anything that was created by me can be re-created again. Whateer was collected from others is anyways there with them. This is life. After losing everything, we need to start all over again!
ReplyDeleteThanks Brajadulal, when I lost my old blogs I was at my lowest self. Somehow one post, that I had exported to Facebook was left. And after an year I read it again, I felt stupid for deleting it.
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